I am 75 years old, WOW!  I would like to explain here, that I have written much of my own struggles and learning in this first book of this series. I've done this because I have not taken courses on typical human behavior or proper actions that need to be followed to live a balanced life. I, instead, have lived life and learned from it. I can't give YOU the learned rules for being happy. I can only give YOU the gospel of life, my life, as I have lived it, fully experienced it and learned from it all. I have lived in many undesirable conditions. YOU have too. They have made YOU resilient so YOU could continue living in spite of them.

    I've learned why my own abusive events happened to me after the death of my beloved wife of 37 years from Covid-19: it was to give me experience and make me resilient to their effects, so that I would receive the knowledge that would enable me to write this 12-book series of healing that would transform lives. Your life!

    This is how I will teach YOU the "gospel of life."  YOU will read and perhaps be able to apply new factors found herein, that will guide YOU to better decision making, more self-control and self-healing. YOU will be able to learn about balanced living from my experiences and recall your own mistreatments and abuses to correct your thinking about them and heal! I will also include other life-lessons I've discovered. We all can learn from each other. If YOU have a flat tire, and YOU learn how to fix it, then YOU now have the ability to teach others to fix a flat tire.

  After my own two months of abandonment to an orphanage, at the age of thirty months, and my emotional, my sexual and my physical abuses, I was taught just in the past few years from my experiences to identify my pain and learn from my abuses and to understand the many effects my abuses had on me, and the damage to me, emotionally and mentally.

    As I grew older, I grew tired of being unable to take charge of my life and become what I was meant to be. I searched deeper and deeper into my mind, my heart and my soul to see the way to overcome the effect that my abuses had affected me and my life.    As I took therapy and counseling, most of my teen life, it always seemed that I couldn't understand how a person who sat before me, and seemed so balanced, could even begin to know what I needed to do to heal or to understand what my damage had caused me in my past and my present. 

    How could this counselor know or understand what I had experienced just by having studied textbooks and took classes to earn a degree for understanding people with disorders, dysfunctions and infirmities. So, now, I present to you the “hands on” approach of learning how to “change a tire” by learning from someone who has actually “changed a tire” rather than reading words about it. I will speak to you from and about my direct exclusive experiences, feelings, and the results of my years of learning to understand and heal the effects of my traumatic experiences and events.